Hello Sweetie Pie,
As the title suggests we're now 8 weeks in! Your Daddy and I are getting more comfortable talking about you as an actuality and we are thrilled to be able to see you soon (11 days!!!). Although he claims not to have a preference your Daddy seems to be very eager to find out if you are a boy or a girl. I was watching a video today on what to expect from an ultrasound just to have an idea of what we would be seeing and his first question was how soon would they be able to tell the gender. And to think, I had hoped we might be able to wait until the birth to find out! Apparently, I do not know my husband that well...
To celebrate your 8 weeks I am watching Lady and the Tramp. I bought the movie with you and your future siblings in mind (I'm sure you'll be as big a dog lover as we are). I started buying my favorite classic disney movies when they're released on blu-ray so I would have them when we started our own family. I'm taking it easy today because I woke up with a terribly sore throat and body aches. The thought of catching something while I'm carrying you really worries me. I know it is out of my control to some extent but I so want to do everything in my power to make sure you have a good start in life. I know this is just another example of what I'm sure will be a regular occurrence as I travel further into the realm of parenthood. The reality is that no matter how much I plan I am not in control. I'm looking forward to mellowing out a bit and just enjoying being your Mama.
Love you my little one.
Monday, October 1, 2012
Monday, September 24, 2012
Adjusting My Expectations
I already have a case of mama guilt...before we managed to get pregnant I read a LOT of books on TTC and early pregnancy but now that I finally am pregnant I am too busy or too tired (my new bed time on days when I have the option is 9pm sharp) to do any extra reading. Since I am in school I have barely been keeping up with my class requirements since I start yawning at about 7pm each night. I also somehow had these wild imaginings that I was going to be this miracle woman who didn't get nauseous and ate an amazingly healthy and balanced diet...thank goodness for prenatal vitamins!
So many things that I loved are now repulsive to me. Example: Edamame was one of my favorite snacks (sometimes even a meal replacement) now, just vaguely picturing it makes me gag. Luckily, I have not been nauseous all the time, it seems to be a few days on and a few off so I get some relief and have a chance to consume a few calories (when I am nauseous I could pretty much go all day without eating even though I do try to force myself to consume a few wholesome things throughout the day). On the days where I feel good I am ravenous, but selectively so. Heavy, starchy, homey things seem to be the ticket on good days. Like today we got up REALLY early so I was hungry for lunch at 10am and the only thing that I could think of was that ridiculous Trader Joe's 4 cheese Macaroni so I dug it out of the freezer, hovered over the microwave, and demolished it without even bothering to transfer it to a bowl like a civilized human being. Then I went to class and around 2 I started fantasizing about Chinese food. I really wanted to be good and get a veggie heavy dish but I kept picturing the broccoli beef (I know the beef is usually so sketchy but I LOVE that stuff). Then close to when class let out I fixation turned to a Sonic cheeseburger...I had errands to run on the other side of town, and it was about time for rush hour but nothing else would satisfy me. When I finally got that thing out of the little brown sack *Oh My Word* it was the best burger I have ever eaten. Completely worth the 45 minutes I tacked onto my trip home.
While the cravings have been increasingly intense over the last week or so only a couple of symptoms have been consistent. One is how ever loving sore my boobs are, I mean jeez, I thought you couldn't sleep on your stomach later on in pregnancy but I had to stop like 3 weeks ago! The other thing is the exhaustion. I used to be a night owl, 2am was not a stretch for me, but honestly if my work schedule permitted I would be out like a light most night. I think this is the aspect my husband has found to be so amusing since the tables have turned and he is the one up on the computer while I snore away. It probably doesn't help that I also went off caffeine about a week ago since the acid was bothering my stomach.
I'll do my best to talk about other things in the future and not turn this into my pregnancy symptom blog...
In other news our little one is now about 1/2 and inch long and the size of a blueberry with many other incredible developments in the works. I am counting down the days until we have our first ultrasound and get to see him or her! T-minus 18 days! I can't wait to share the news with our families it has taken a lot of control not to say anything thus far.
So many things that I loved are now repulsive to me. Example: Edamame was one of my favorite snacks (sometimes even a meal replacement) now, just vaguely picturing it makes me gag. Luckily, I have not been nauseous all the time, it seems to be a few days on and a few off so I get some relief and have a chance to consume a few calories (when I am nauseous I could pretty much go all day without eating even though I do try to force myself to consume a few wholesome things throughout the day). On the days where I feel good I am ravenous, but selectively so. Heavy, starchy, homey things seem to be the ticket on good days. Like today we got up REALLY early so I was hungry for lunch at 10am and the only thing that I could think of was that ridiculous Trader Joe's 4 cheese Macaroni so I dug it out of the freezer, hovered over the microwave, and demolished it without even bothering to transfer it to a bowl like a civilized human being. Then I went to class and around 2 I started fantasizing about Chinese food. I really wanted to be good and get a veggie heavy dish but I kept picturing the broccoli beef (I know the beef is usually so sketchy but I LOVE that stuff). Then close to when class let out I fixation turned to a Sonic cheeseburger...I had errands to run on the other side of town, and it was about time for rush hour but nothing else would satisfy me. When I finally got that thing out of the little brown sack *Oh My Word* it was the best burger I have ever eaten. Completely worth the 45 minutes I tacked onto my trip home.
While the cravings have been increasingly intense over the last week or so only a couple of symptoms have been consistent. One is how ever loving sore my boobs are, I mean jeez, I thought you couldn't sleep on your stomach later on in pregnancy but I had to stop like 3 weeks ago! The other thing is the exhaustion. I used to be a night owl, 2am was not a stretch for me, but honestly if my work schedule permitted I would be out like a light most night. I think this is the aspect my husband has found to be so amusing since the tables have turned and he is the one up on the computer while I snore away. It probably doesn't help that I also went off caffeine about a week ago since the acid was bothering my stomach.
I'll do my best to talk about other things in the future and not turn this into my pregnancy symptom blog...
In other news our little one is now about 1/2 and inch long and the size of a blueberry with many other incredible developments in the works. I am counting down the days until we have our first ultrasound and get to see him or her! T-minus 18 days! I can't wait to share the news with our families it has taken a lot of control not to say anything thus far.
Sunday, September 16, 2012
Let's talk Early Symptoms...one in particular
A few days ago, I was starting to worry because I hadn't hit the nausea stage yet and I heard this could mean that your hormone levels weren't picking up sufficiently to sustain a pregnancy, but as luck would have it I got my first bout of headache/nausea later the same day and it has continued like clockwork from noon and until about 4pm daily. It's oddly comforting because I know that my hormone levels etc. have to be making adjustments for me to feel cruddy but it is during the middle of the day right, around when I have to go into work, which is not so fun. I'll post on this and other symptoms as I progress but now I want to discuss the first real symptom I had. I warn you it is not for the weak of heart/stomach folks...
My oh so romantic initial hint we may have actually conceived on our first try was when (I'm just going to be honest now) I went 3 MISERABLE days without *ahem* doing my business...
The only doctor I bothered to seek out after moving here was an OB who I LOVE so I called (on day 3) out of sheer desperation to talk to her nurse. The first thing she asked was "are you pregnant?" since we were still several days out from reliable pregnancy testing my answer was "I don't know." To my horror, her recommendation was that I take a laxative. Let me say that that was probably the most uncomfortable night of my life and completely different from what I had expected. Since I come from an over-sharing family (with the exception of my sister) I mentioned this experience to my mom (whose first question also happened to be "are you pregnant") and her suggestion was prunes and honestly they are such a welcome and effective alternative. I try to take as few medications and expose myself to as few chemicals as possible so I really appreciated a natural alternative and I was kind of shocked that the nurse didn't even suggest them. I have been eating 3-6 a day since!
I know it's kind of odd but this is the first my husband and I had ever discussed bodily functions. After being together more than 6 years and married for over 3, it was strangely ideal shattering and such a relief to feel more comfortable broaching this with him. Since pregnancy is a less than glamorous period of time I guess the timing couldn't have been better! I know this isn't particularly fun or cute, but I'll leave it to the little human I'm growing to make up for that in later posts.
My oh so romantic initial hint we may have actually conceived on our first try was when (I'm just going to be honest now) I went 3 MISERABLE days without *ahem* doing my business...
The only doctor I bothered to seek out after moving here was an OB who I LOVE so I called (on day 3) out of sheer desperation to talk to her nurse. The first thing she asked was "are you pregnant?" since we were still several days out from reliable pregnancy testing my answer was "I don't know." To my horror, her recommendation was that I take a laxative. Let me say that that was probably the most uncomfortable night of my life and completely different from what I had expected. Since I come from an over-sharing family (with the exception of my sister) I mentioned this experience to my mom (whose first question also happened to be "are you pregnant") and her suggestion was prunes and honestly they are such a welcome and effective alternative. I try to take as few medications and expose myself to as few chemicals as possible so I really appreciated a natural alternative and I was kind of shocked that the nurse didn't even suggest them. I have been eating 3-6 a day since!
I know it's kind of odd but this is the first my husband and I had ever discussed bodily functions. After being together more than 6 years and married for over 3, it was strangely ideal shattering and such a relief to feel more comfortable broaching this with him. Since pregnancy is a less than glamorous period of time I guess the timing couldn't have been better! I know this isn't particularly fun or cute, but I'll leave it to the little human I'm growing to make up for that in later posts.
Monday, September 10, 2012
Beating Heart
Hello My Favorite Little Person,
My eyes are very heavy as I type this. You are seriously zapping me of all energy, but you are so worth it! I have been a student/employee for a LONG TIME, it is draining with lots of long days and late nights, but I have never felt as physically exhausted as I do now that you are burrowed deep in there. I had heard that you feel tired during the 1st trimester but I thought they meant yawning, you can push through it tired but this is all out, I don't even feel like moving 99% of the time, wiped out. Now, I am no marathon runner but I do like to be active throughout the day and find it difficult to sit still for long stretches so I am hoping this doesn't last for too long, especially now that I am working on weening myself off of my morning cup of coffee...I did use some of my sitting time today to copy down the dumbed down fetal development timeline I found online. These things either seem to be too cream puffy (not informative) or geared toward med students (not cream puffy enough) but I will keep looking. I think I already mentioned it, but this weeks big development is your hear beginning to beat (HUGE DEAL)! Even though we won't be able to hear it for weeks it gives me a bit more energy just to think of it.
I think your Daddy has been good and refrained from spilling the beans as yet, but I have told 5 people including him, 2 friends, my sister, and my boss. It is so hard to keep such amazing exciting news to myself! Also, I don't generally radiate happiness (my nickname at work is "Smiley" and that is sarcasm) so I think people will notice the rather obvious shift in mood (if not the bathroom runs when morning sickness really gets going). I can't wait until we are through the first trimester to alleviate some of those nagging worries and then I can be one of those obnoxiously excited Mommy's-to-be. For now I will comfort myself with planning how we will surprise everyone.
Mama
My eyes are very heavy as I type this. You are seriously zapping me of all energy, but you are so worth it! I have been a student/employee for a LONG TIME, it is draining with lots of long days and late nights, but I have never felt as physically exhausted as I do now that you are burrowed deep in there. I had heard that you feel tired during the 1st trimester but I thought they meant yawning, you can push through it tired but this is all out, I don't even feel like moving 99% of the time, wiped out. Now, I am no marathon runner but I do like to be active throughout the day and find it difficult to sit still for long stretches so I am hoping this doesn't last for too long, especially now that I am working on weening myself off of my morning cup of coffee...I did use some of my sitting time today to copy down the dumbed down fetal development timeline I found online. These things either seem to be too cream puffy (not informative) or geared toward med students (not cream puffy enough) but I will keep looking. I think I already mentioned it, but this weeks big development is your hear beginning to beat (HUGE DEAL)! Even though we won't be able to hear it for weeks it gives me a bit more energy just to think of it.
I think your Daddy has been good and refrained from spilling the beans as yet, but I have told 5 people including him, 2 friends, my sister, and my boss. It is so hard to keep such amazing exciting news to myself! Also, I don't generally radiate happiness (my nickname at work is "Smiley" and that is sarcasm) so I think people will notice the rather obvious shift in mood (if not the bathroom runs when morning sickness really gets going). I can't wait until we are through the first trimester to alleviate some of those nagging worries and then I can be one of those obnoxiously excited Mommy's-to-be. For now I will comfort myself with planning how we will surprise everyone.
Mama
Sunday, September 9, 2012
Favorite sight
Little Darling,
I took a second test the other night not to confirm that I am pregnant because I can already feel so many changes taking place within myself on both a physical and emotional level. I took the second test because the other one had disappeared and I loved being able to glance over to my left while doing something mundane like brushing my teeth or taking off my makeup and feeling that little thrill I get whenever I think of you. The other test display was gone when I got up this morning, but in about a month we will have so much more than a word on a little screen, we will have our first ultrasound. I can't wait to see you!
Mama
I took a second test the other night not to confirm that I am pregnant because I can already feel so many changes taking place within myself on both a physical and emotional level. I took the second test because the other one had disappeared and I loved being able to glance over to my left while doing something mundane like brushing my teeth or taking off my makeup and feeling that little thrill I get whenever I think of you. The other test display was gone when I got up this morning, but in about a month we will have so much more than a word on a little screen, we will have our first ultrasound. I can't wait to see you!
Mama
Friday, September 7, 2012
Day 3
Hello My Sweet Little One,
I know you don't even technically have a heartbeat yet, but I still have such a sense of you as your own being. I am already charting out the markers of your development and creating a little calendar filled with them. At most, you currently resemble a tadpole of sorts and will soon move into a stage where you look like the Alien in Alien. We are mostly referring to you as the "bryo" since you are not yet a fetus, but I can't wait until you are! Tuesday marks your 5th week and only 35 or so to go! Even though life is super busy I really want to cherish every aspect of this pregnancy even the rough parts. It is such a beautiful process and I love knowing that you are growing and developing and being nourished by my body each day. You are already such a motivating force for us.
Mama
P.S. I'm sure you're cute even for a primitive tadpole/Alien.
Thursday, September 6, 2012
From the First Moment
Little Love,
You may only be the size of a poppy seed but you are in there! I can't even tell you how incredible it was to stand there fingers and and legs crossed waiting for that hourglass on the pregnancy test to stop flashing and give me an answer. I can't believe you are in there and you are ours. As I was laying in bed last night (you are already affecting my sleep) I was already feeling so protective of you. All I can think of is making sure that I do everything in my power to make sure you get to develop into a perfect whole little person. And of course your Daddy, being the planner he is, is already thinking about which type of account to open for your college fund. I don't know if you will ever want to read this someday but I hope that we are able to raise a compassionate, motivated individual who knows how completely they are loved and takes that with confidence into the world each day. Even as you are growing in there I know that I will not be able to spare you all of the pain and heartache that life can bring but I hope moments like the one I experienced yesterday when I saw the word "Pregnant" on that screen will make those trials worth it. I love you more than I can say and I can't wait to feel you growing inside me day by day and to finally hold you in my arms in 9 months. You are so loved little one.
Mama
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