Beating Heart

Hello My Favorite Little Person,
My eyes are very heavy as I type this. You are seriously zapping me of all energy, but you are so worth it! I have been a student/employee for a LONG TIME, it is draining with lots of long days and late nights, but I have never felt as physically exhausted as I do now that you are burrowed deep in there. I had heard that you feel tired during the 1st trimester but I thought they meant yawning, you can push through it tired but this is all out, I don't even feel like moving 99% of the time, wiped out. Now, I am no marathon runner but I do like to be active throughout the day and find it difficult to sit still for long stretches so I am hoping this doesn't last for too long, especially now that I am working on weening myself off of my morning cup of  coffee...I did use some of my sitting time today to copy down the dumbed down fetal development timeline I found online. These things either seem to be too cream puffy (not informative) or geared toward med students (not cream puffy enough) but I will keep looking. I think I already mentioned it, but this weeks big development is your hear beginning to beat (HUGE DEAL)! Even though we won't be able to hear it for weeks it gives me a bit more energy just to think of it.
I think your Daddy has been good and refrained from spilling the beans as yet, but I have told 5 people including him, 2 friends, my sister, and my boss. It is so hard to keep such amazing exciting news to myself! Also, I don't generally radiate happiness (my nickname at work is "Smiley" and that is sarcasm) so I think people will notice the rather obvious shift in mood (if not the bathroom runs when morning sickness really gets going). I can't wait until we are through the first trimester to alleviate some of those nagging worries and then I can be one of those obnoxiously excited Mommy's-to-be. For now I will comfort myself with planning how we will surprise everyone.
Mama