I already have a case of mama guilt...before we managed to get pregnant I read a LOT of books on TTC and early pregnancy but now that I finally am pregnant I am too busy or too tired (my new bed time on days when I have the option is 9pm sharp) to do any extra reading. Since I am in school I have barely been keeping up with my class requirements since I start yawning at about 7pm each night. I also somehow had these wild imaginings that I was going to be this miracle woman who didn't get nauseous and ate an amazingly healthy and balanced diet...thank goodness for prenatal vitamins!
So many things that I loved are now repulsive to me. Example: Edamame was one of my favorite snacks (sometimes even a meal replacement) now, just vaguely picturing it makes me gag. Luckily, I have not been nauseous all the time, it seems to be a few days on and a few off so I get some relief and have a chance to consume a few calories (when I am nauseous I could pretty much go all day without eating even though I do try to force myself to consume a few wholesome things throughout the day). On the days where I feel good I am ravenous, but selectively so. Heavy, starchy, homey things seem to be the ticket on good days. Like today we got up REALLY early so I was hungry for lunch at 10am and the only thing that I could think of was that ridiculous Trader Joe's 4 cheese Macaroni so I dug it out of the freezer, hovered over the microwave, and demolished it without even bothering to transfer it to a bowl like a civilized human being. Then I went to class and around 2 I started fantasizing about Chinese food. I really wanted to be good and get a veggie heavy dish but I kept picturing the broccoli beef (I know the beef is usually so sketchy but I LOVE that stuff). Then close to when class let out I fixation turned to a Sonic cheeseburger...I had errands to run on the other side of town, and it was about time for rush hour but nothing else would satisfy me. When I finally got that thing out of the little brown sack *Oh My Word* it was the best burger I have ever eaten. Completely worth the 45 minutes I tacked onto my trip home.
While the cravings have been increasingly intense over the last week or so only a couple of symptoms have been consistent. One is how ever loving sore my boobs are, I mean jeez, I thought you couldn't sleep on your stomach later on in pregnancy but I had to stop like 3 weeks ago! The other thing is the exhaustion. I used to be a night owl, 2am was not a stretch for me, but honestly if my work schedule permitted I would be out like a light most night. I think this is the aspect my husband has found to be so amusing since the tables have turned and he is the one up on the computer while I snore away. It probably doesn't help that I also went off caffeine about a week ago since the acid was bothering my stomach.
I'll do my best to talk about other things in the future and not turn this into my pregnancy symptom blog...
In other news our little one is now about 1/2 and inch long and the size of a blueberry with many other incredible developments in the works. I am counting down the days until we have our first ultrasound and get to see him or her! T-minus 18 days! I can't wait to share the news with our families it has taken a lot of control not to say anything thus far.
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